I’ve been trying to aggressively avoid stress. Partially because of doctor’s orders (part of that whole staying sane thing), but also because I want to enjoy this short period of being pregnant without worry. Not sure if you’ve ever seen my worry matrix.. Yes, I worry A LOT. I swear, part of it is genetic – I come from a looooong line of worriers. However, in my attempt to control I can take worrying to a whole new level.
Which is why I’m trying very hard to live by my matrix right now.
The company I love, and have thrived in for the past three years, is struggling big time. As in, I’ve been assured I’ve got a job until maternity leave, but there are no promises after June. After taking in that big cold gulp of reality, I realized that I need to start looking for a new job. Not right now – when I’m (finally) visibly pregnant, but most definitely starting in May. And I need to figure out exactly what it is I do… I sort of launch companies – but what does one apply for?
I know I’ll be fine. I’ve got a few months to get prepared (oh, hiiiiii! new skillz and portfolio and resume and networking!). I’ve got three months after June to look for a new job before the moola runs out. I’ve got three and a half months to brush up and get prepared before I start looking in earnest. Usually, the hardest part is making the decision to go after a new job, and since it’s been made for me – it’s not really all that hard. There’s a chance my company could survive – and a good chance that they’d keep me around when I got back. However, I don’t want to live on the edge of the knife like that – especially when I’m the primary earner in my household.
So, there that is. Oh, hiiiiii stress. Thanks for coming for a visit… Since I’ve got this under control, could you go knock on someone else’s door now?